this will be the real beginning.
the starting line.
things must change before they can get any better.

lately i have this overwhelming feeling that i am trapped.
i feel like nothing will change.
I NEED CHANGE.
everything around me seems so very unimportant.
nothing really matters.
it's all just passing me by.
day to day life drags me further down into the hole of a life people call normal.
F.U.C.K. all that.
i need to leave.
i am starting to scare myself.
i don't really enjoy anything anymore, everything seems boring.
i just spend my time filling the void with work.
when work isn't there, i smoke.
period.
well, i take pills too.
i try and use music, i need music.
it's hard when there is no one around who feels the same way you do.
i can't converse with my friends about the things i really care about, because they don't care.
it's not their fault, i am not mad.
i was never one to force things upon people.
i am just saying, its hard to stay interested when there is no one to talk to.

hopefully that will all change.
hopefully this will be the beginning.
hopefully i will be the beginning.
all i need now is for someone to pull the trigger.

this is just the beginning.



love your life. quite cliche, but i guess thats me; a bowl of pop culture with some arms and feet.